Beauty

It’s okay to dream the dreams you dream. {A little love note}

It’s okay to start where you are. It’s okay to allow yourself to move forward with what calls to you to do. You do not need to be held back by small mistakes of the past, or a fear or doubt that you cannot do it.

Know that you are worthy of all that you dream of having in your life.

For me, I dreamed of sharing my grief journal, creating more journals with ease. Publishing them on Amazon, being a published and well-loved and celebrated author.

I always dreamed of this. Even in past visions or meditations, and beautiful ideas for children’s books.

It has always been a dream of mine, but one I’ve held so close and near, afraid to name in case it doesn’t come true.

It’s okay to name what you want.

It’s okay to dream the dreams you dream.

Without your dreams, the world wouldn’t be the same, the fairies and fireflies couldn’t dance in the midnight’s sky.

Your dreams are beautiful. They help make you who you are.

And all that you are is your dreams coming true.

When have you ever had a dream come true, that it brought you to life the moment it was fulfilled?

For me, it was visiting Easter Island. The very experience of that dream coming true, standing there along the ocean’s shore, breathing in the fresh salty air and feeling the sunshine on my skin…

I danced with delight on the inside and it put the biggest smile on my face.

You are worthy of your dreams coming true.

Allow them to give you energy, not like a bag of rocks weighing you down.

Anytime you feel like a bag of rocks or a ton of bricks are weighing you down — stop and feel inside, if those rocks or bricks are really yours.

For you know the dream you dream is yours, when it makes you feel light and happy and free.

Not weighed down with fears or anticipation of judgments or what others think.

This is not your responsibility. It’s okay to set those rocks down.

That’s what I wish I could go back and tell my former self — and even what I’m still learning right here, right now — today.

Is to let the rocks of expectations go, and trade them in for freedom instead.

So what would feel like the most freeing thing for you today?

I’ve found that when I focus on freedom, and what feels nurturing and loving for me to do, usually leads to the greatest rewards — the greatest surprises, and unfoldings and synchronicities.

This is likely true for you too, and I wish I could tell that past version of myself the same.

That you don’t to have it all figured out right away — that it’s okay to take steps into the unknown. And that it’s okay if others don’t understand.

You know what’s true for you. You know the brilliance that you hold within your hands — your life, your love, they are but treasures to be found, as you follow the voice from within.

Allow her to guide you — that sweet, most innocent and pure, delighted version of yourself.

And she’ll carry you all the way home.

Sending you infinite love & blessings, today, and this week~
Caitlin

P.S. If you’d like to join us for our Virtual Tea Party tomorrow, reach out here and let me know! I’ll make sure to send you an email with all the details.

Make some tea, bring your journal and let’s connect!

Tomorrow, Thursday, August 1st at 3 pm PST…

Beauty, Blessings

When Giving Something Away Makes Your Heart Sparkle

There’s a way that love sparkles. The way that the light feels when it hits your face with the glorious glow of sunshine, or even in the moment you notice a sparkle in your very own eye.

One of the things I’ve found that creates this luminosity and sparkle in my own life, and presence, and heart… is clearing space for new things in my life.

That letting go of things we no longer need can bring clarity, insight, freedom…and even, JOY!

This is the story I share in the post below about a time I cleared some clutter, only to find some tremendous and unexpected joys and surprises!

I hope you enjoy!

It’s called: Why Giving Things Away is The Absolute BEST!

Originally published Oct. 12, 2015

I stood in front of the bathroom mirror. As I stared at my reflection, wearing the red Chiefs sweatshirt, I noticed some things. I didn’t like the way it looked. I didn’t like the way it felt. And I didn’t like the way I felt wearing it.

It was uncomfortable. I felt droopy and kind of weighed down. All of this could only mean one thing: the time had come to let it go.

I took a few minutes to remember how much fun my brother and I had together that crisp and sunny October weekend five years ago. It was the first trip I’d made back to the Midwest on my own, and I flew into town for a quick visit and a Chiefs game. Naturally, this meant stopping at the store to buy some Chiefs gear on the way.

But now, holding the sweatshirt my hand, my mind carefully clicked through the following:

  1. I wasn’t going to wear this thing again.
  2. Giving it away would not erase any of my cherished memories that were created while wearing it.
  3. It would be awesome if someone else could have the opportunity to wear and enjoy it.

And just like that, the years of keeping it stored it the back of my closet, thinking I would or should wear it again, finally came to an end as I added it to a bag of items destined for Goodwill. Then I went about my day, happily imagining a Chiefs fan unexpectedly stumbling across it in Portland, thrilled to have something new to wear on game days this season.

A few days later, my mom came over to load everything up. She took the first couple bags down to the car and came back WEARING the sweatshirt! And it looked fantastic on her!

I experienced FAR more joy in those first five minutes of seeing her wear the sweatshirt than I did in the entire 5 years it had been in my possession. All of the things that made it less than ideal for me — the orangey shade of red and the way the collar pops up in the back — are the exact things that make it perfect for her! Needless to say, I had no idea that the Chiefs fan to find treasure in my old sweatshirt would turn out to be my very own mom! I was, and still am, thrilled!

Maybe you have something similar in your possession — something small, something you hardly think about, but something that if you were to take a second to consider it, you’d realize there’s some memory, emotion, or “should” attached to it. I’d love to hear your stories in the comments below and I can’t wait to hear if you experience the same sweet taste of freedom that I did.

Because this simple sweatshirt didn’t take up much room. I didn’t think of it all that often. And yet, it was sucking energy and joy from my life without me even knowing it. I only realize this now because of the feelings of lightness and freedom I felt once I’d let go. It became a release of guilt that I didn’t even know I was carrying around — for not having worn it enough, for not having gotten my money’s worth, etc.

So it turns out, I let go of something more than just a sweatshirt. And I was rewarded tenfold, receiving something SO much better in return.

Big surprise, little things are powerful. This definitely shouldn’t be a surprise at this point, but somehow I find myself in awe of that simple truth EVERY time it pops up.

Simple yet profound. Small but mighty. It never gets old.

Wishing you freedom and JOY, 
And some awe for good measure,

Caitlin

Beauty, Brave Soul

Links & Updates

We had a brief downpour here in Portland today.

And I couldn’t help but remember the way I watched my dad stand in the doorway breathing in the scent of the rain with every fiber of his being.

And the way I shared this memory as part of a different experience with rain from a few years ago that I wrote about, called Gentle Afternoon Rain.

For the last few weeks things have been quiet on the blog because I’ve been sharing past beauties and insights via email.

If you’d like to receive posts and other surprises, and just all around inspired goodness straight from my heart, you can join us here. And I’d love to connect with you each week.

Here are the links to some of the posts, and more, I’ve shared, if you feel like a weekend Scroll-Through-And-Savor session. 🙂

Sending much love to you always. ❤

Links & Updates from the Past Month…

The Girl in the Coffee Shop {+ A Fun New Surprise}

the girl in the coffee shop

Need some encouragement? {You can do this.}

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May Day Wishes {+ A Few of My Favorite Things}

Be kind to yourself.

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Beauty

Sunshine is basically the best thing in the whole world.

I found myself sitting out in the sunshine unexpectedly today.

And this is not the first time I’ve found myself with the thought, “sunshine is basically the best thing in the whole world.”

It has such a life-giving and beautiful glow, and strength, beauty, and grace.

It is the light that shines on our spirits so that the light of our souls may shine through.

And it reminded me of this blessing, that I’d like to share with you.

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This Apache blessing always reminds me of a dear friend from college. (You know who you are – wink.)

And if you find yourself with some quiet time today or this weekend, I invite you to find a comfortable spot to sit (even better if it’s outside) and journal about the question…

What beauty do you notice around you right now?

P.S. This is a journal prompt I’m playing with including in a free 7 day journaling experience I’m putting together. If you’d like to join us, stay tuned and I’ll let you know when it’s ready! 🙂

AND, I’m having my first free weekly journaling call tomorrow (Friday) at 3pm PST. If you’d like to make a little quiet time for yourself and be guided through some gentle writing exercises to listen for what your heart has to say, I’d love to have you join us. Just hit reply to this email and I’ll send you the call in info. Hope to see you there. 🙂

Sending much love and many blessings to you always,

Caitlin

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Beauty

Gentle afternoon rain.

Last week I attended a performance: gentle afternoon rain.

It was warm enough outside that my bedroom window was open. As I finished cooking some veggies in the kitchen, I thought I heard a slight mist. It seemed so out of place with how bright the sun had been shining most of the afternoon. “Is it raining, Dino?” I asked aloud, as if my dog could confirm my suspicions. I walked into the bedroom to see, and there it was–rain falling softly, drawing me in closer for the show.

Next thing I knew, I found myself sitting at the foot of the bed, directly facing the window, staring out and eating my lunch by the sound of the falling rain.

I watched and listened with reverence, delighted by the feelings of eagerness and satisfaction that began to build inside of me as if I were attending a most magnificent performance live at Her Majesty’s Theatre.

My windowsill set the frame like a stage, and the stillness outside was the backdrop that featured the raindrops doing their thing.

I listened as the drops all evenly fell. And as I finished eating my food, the rain started to slow. A brief intermission to put down my bowl and let Dino hop up to snuggle in my lap. And there we sat, watching the stillness out the window and listening to the rain.

I breathed in deeply and remembered the time I watched my dad open the side door of our house, to stand there, looking out through the screen at the rain, breathing in the refreshing scent of invisible swirls of goodness. Fresh air meandering in, there in abundance for the receiving. I don’t know if he knew I was watching but the way he savored those moments with such purpose and wonder changed something in me forever.

Still on my bed, I listened as the rain accumulated. Larger drops began to fall on new things, creating fancy rhythms and delicate sounds. And then came the gentle rushing sound of tiny streams, flowing through the gutter or following the bend of the downstairs curb. Until the showers began to taper once more and finally slowed to a stop. And with that, the show was over and the sun came out again.

Now as I relive the story to share it with you, I find it curious that the experience doesn’t feel small, nor especially large. It feels softly satisfying. And perhaps this quiet intensity is the mightiest power there is. From stillness and softness comes the strength.

It seems life is just waiting for us to offer it the reverence it deserves. Not out of a desire for selfish recognition but because it knows the nourishment that will be brought to our souls and the contentment that will fill our hearts. It knows that it will stir things within us and unlock new secrets of who we are. And what pure and generous love this is, to want us to see its beauty, only so that we may feel and know our own.

Ah, may we all make a little space to savor this today–whatever beauty we can sense, wherever we are. Because the performance is always happening. It’s just a matter of hearing the whispers that call us to its display.

Sending much love & joy to you this week,

Caitlin

{March 3, 2016}